So today wasn't our day...

but things are moving. There were 4 referrals on the forum today. 3 for baby girls. We are into the top 10 on the list now, (if I manipulate the numbers a tidge!) I am holding out hope that my baby girl is coming soon. Maybe "The sun will come out tomorrow!"

Keep on prayin!

Bring on the Valium!

Oh My Goodness I am a mess today!!!! I have this pit of my stomach sense of foreboding this am and I can't tell if it is excited foreboding or freaked out foreboding!! There was a referral yesterday and a hint at another one. I have a feeling the dry spell is over. Once again, logic would tell me to chill, we are still a few too far down the list for our referral...but if my daughter is in this batch...I will know soon. My cell phone is glued to my person (gave the kids whiplash as I realized at the end of the block this am that I had left it on the charger!) E called it this am and I nearly drove off the road. It could be a very long day...and if it is dread I am sensing...could be a long weekend! E leaves for a week on Sun and it would be so nice to be in the same place (or at least state!) when this call comes.

So this could all be for naught...but I am a mess none the less...so prayers for a calm heart, and my phone to ring with that all important call!!

Wednesday, Wednesday...

It's Wednesday...hump day, middle of the week day...wishin it was referral day! The general consensus from families on the CHSFS forum is that most referrals come toward the end of the week. So that means tomorrow gets down right close to the end of the week. Hmmm...

So I keep thinking about the "vision" I had of my daughter and Tesi getting her feeling about her. If that really was her...her paperwork should be just about ready to be sent to be matched. This is what keeps giving me pause. Logically, we are still weeks away from a referral if you look at the numbers...and if there are no referrals in the next few days, statistically, we don't make it through before June 1st. But I just have to believe my little one is ready....I am keeping the faith!

Keep praying...(oh and careful calling my cell phone...any time it rings, I am sent into spasms until I see which area code the number is from!)

The Amazing Thing

is that there is a little girl on the other side of the world whom I will be privileged enough to call "daughter". This is such an awesome thought. I don't know her face yet, but she thrives in my heart and her spirit soars in my dreams.

I thank you all for your prayers. I can truly feel them surrounding me and I think they are a large part of why I am feeling a peace about this wait right now. Keep um coming...the wait isn't over!

Not much else today...my heart and my mind are quiet...possibly preparing the soil for an unimaginable love to bloom!

8 Months...pictures, and prayers~

Okay...I know you are waiting for floor pics...here they are! It came out pretty good. Although whomever had the house previously, obviously thought the carpet was there to stay and when they painted, didn't put down any drop cloths...so needless to say we will have to sand and re stain, but it is such a huge improvement and makes me love the house so much more!!

For some reason, this was the only pic that loaded...I will try to get more later! Anyway...they look much better! Saturday was the elementary regional science fair...J had a project and took first in his division! Here is a very mama and son!

Not sure why we are sideways... I will try and fix that!!

On to other news...we got word on Friday that they are going to cut off referrals June 1. We can be open to accepting a referral during the court closure time, (which we will) but unless you get a referral before the 1st, they don't think the case will process through before the courts close. So this leaves us with a sticky wicket...We are RIGHT on the cusp of hitting June 1st. It all depends on how many referrals there are this month. If we don't make it, but get a referral shortly after the 1st, which is pretty likely, then they will still submitt us to court, but with the chance we won't make it though. That will then leave us "in line" to get a court date as soon as the courts re-open in September. Best case scenario, we get a referral before June 1 or shortly there after and make it thorugh court and travel to get our girl in late august. Worse case scenario...we don't get a referral until late June, don't make it through court and then get placed in line and have to wait until Nov or December to go get her. We would have her picture, but would wait extra time to travel.

So I am asking for prayers...prayers we get our referral before June 1st. Prayers that we can be united with our child soon, and none of us will have to wait extra time to become a family. Prayers for all the families waiting on the cusp of the cutoff to have peace in the situation, and hope for the best.

In church on Sunday, I really did get a peace about it all...God sort of told me to chill out, she will be here soon...but none the less...prayers would be much appreciated! God is smiling on me today and gave us a gloriously sunny day off...so I am off to enjoy it. Thanks for keeping us in your prayers!

Home Wrecker

Okay...so I already got my hair chopped off...that brought no luck. SO it is on to bigger and better things. My poor spouse. He survived three pregnancies with me, but this "pregnancy" might just send him over the edge. To say I am restless is a huge understatement. I need to be busy, I need to accomplish some big task...I need to feel I am doing something instead of all this sitting and waiting. The grand state of Minnesota is not helping in this endeavor. Normally, I could be putting all this pent up energy into the yard...clearing the gardens, tidy-ing the play areas, attacking the garage...but alas there is sn*#!! in the forecast yet again and it has just been too damn cold and yucky to get the yard prepped. So that leaves me with the house. I already re-did the bathroom and installing the new patio door might just be a little too much for me to tackle. So tonight I am going on an archaeological dig...and unearthing the wood floors in the living room. We have a huge living room...really too big I think, and it is carpeted in white...yes WHITE carpet. I have 3 boys, 2 dogs, and a cat...think that carpet is still white? No way sister! I am sick of looking at dirty carpet...so it is coming out. The thought of my sweet precious little girl crawling on that carpet is enough to make me rather nauseous...so out it is coming. Back to my poor spouse...he's had a long week...he is tired...and getting a cold, so the kids and I are going to do this job (well, most of it!) Said spouse also reminded me that we have a house full of company coming tomorrow..I said...won't they love the new look of the floors!

So keep your fingers crossed...that hubby doesn't pack up and leave me...that the wood I am 98% sure is under that carpet really is there and intact...and that I can have it all spit-shined and pretty by tomorrow's company! I'll post pics as soon as it's done!!

Sweetness

So this morning I am signing off J's academic planner. They keep a daily "to do" list and then as parents, we make sure they have done everything and sign it off. It is a great way to keep tabs on what is going on in the classroom. Anyway, this morning, in our rush to get out the door, he tossed it to me with a pen and the "quick mom, sign it" look in his eyes. Because it is a new month, it was opened to the calendar for the month. Scrawled in ten year old penmanship was 'Referral ANY DAY !!!!!!!" written across most of the month. Attempting to keep my ever present tears at bay...I told him I thought that was really cool that he was thinking about his sister. "Mom" he says " I am always thinking about her, this wait is making me crazy" Oh so hard to keep the water works at bay at that point!! We had a great hug, and agreed the wait is really driving us crazy...but won't it be great when she is home.

Sitting in my dining room today is the ultimate car seat. Nana and Papa got us the Britax Marathon in pink. It totally rocks...now we just need to get this girl home and into it! Thanks mom and dad!
The comment from Z was ... now that's pink! Love it.

Going to try to be happy today. Going to try and focus on happy energy, happy thoughts and pink carseats. No tears today...she will come when the timing is perfect.