Welcome to the World Jackson!

There was great news in the world today. I am a new aunt. Jackson (baby seattle) arrived this evening. My baby brother is a daddy...wow, that is pretty awesome! And his most beautiful wife is a rock star...enduring labor and a c-section! Congrats new mama and daddy, and just so you know, the most obnoxious, loud, bright, many parted toy is on it's way (just kidding, but I warned you, pay back will be sweet!)

Tonight we all go to sleep happy.

Still No News

At least not here...

might be some elsewhere....

tomorrow has to be the day, right?

Get to sing with the praise band at church tonight, that will be good.

Need to clean the house

Want that email.

Miss my girl.

Where oh where is that da*% BC?

Okay, so the patience I mustered for the first half of the day is now all used up. Logically, I know not to expect news of the BC before tomorrow at the earliest. But really, how much longer do I have to wait??? I must have me some bad Karma...this waiting just goes on and on. No one else on our agency forum has gotten one yet this week, so I can at least rest assured knowing that others with my court date aren't jumping ahead of me in the que. I just wish we had some idea of how this works. Does our agency have us penciled in for a travel date? Do they really just wait to see when that BC comes in and then put our names on a wall and throw darts to see when we travel? I am beginning to think it might be this way. I just want to know how much more patience I need to find.

UGH!

Chubby Monkey

So baby girl is growing!! We got a growth report today. She is up to almost 17 lbs and 26 1/2 inches. Her head also grew 1 cm. I am soo excited to know that she continues to grow. She has had nice steady weight gain since coming in to care. Yay!

I am still holding out hope for that birth certificate on Thursday. I am hoping we get that and my brother's little one finally decides to come into the world. A banner day all around I think! Wouldn't that be wonderful. I am also really selfishly hoping to travel with the Sept 10th group. My dear friend and her hubby are traveling then and it would make an already amazing trip about 100x more amazing...so if we are going to be picky pray-ers we are asking for the BC this week and a travel date of Sept 10. That would be perfect. (and for baby seattle to make his entrance soon!) So pray away!!!

It's Time

It is time for good news. It is time for that birth certificate, it is time for the travel date, it is time for an update on Miss Sunshine. It is time for the store to have a great week, it is time for my nephew to be born ( :) ) It's August, it is time and it needs to be a week full of good news!


:)

Saturday

Well, I finally heard from my specialist this am. No news really, except to say that my travel date hinges on the birth certificate and that they hope to see that soon. I hope her soon and my soon are the same. I just laid out the calendar for August. The first two weeks are really busy so that is good. Then it is going to be slow going for a week or two. Hopefully after that, we will be busy with school and packing.

I don't want to wish away the month of August. It is the last time we will be a family of 5. And yet, I look at the calendar with all of those weeks staring at me and it seems like an eternity. So I am going to try and relish the days we have, try and have some free fun together with my boys. I think a date day with each of them is in the plans.

I have a ton of work to do for the shop. The next few months will be very telling. My lease is up in Jan and I have to see where we are going...profit or sinking ship. So my goal for the week is to get a better grip on where that ship is sailing. That may help my stress level or send me completely over the edge. Time will tell.

So, not in a much better place, but as I type, I am eating home-made cookie dough and it is a great balm!

Another week goes by...

and still no news. No update, no birth certificate, no news. I have e-mailed my specialist twice this week to see if we can get any sort of remaining time line, any info on how Sunshine is doing, any idea when we might travel...she has not answered. This does not please me.

We just got back from a few days at nana and papa's house. It was helpful to be away. I am finding myself returning to that yucky place I was in right before we got the referral...the place that is sad, unproductive, and no fun for anyone. I am trying to stay positive, but in all honesty, it isn't working for diddly squat. So my apologies to all that love me. I am just going to be a crabby bitch until I KNOW how long it is until I get my child. It is what it is. So, if you are looking for positive posts, smiles, and all, you're gonna have to look elsewhere. Cause here, we're scrapin the bottom of the barrel.